Implanon, yay or nay?

I know this topic maybe a little too personal to talk openly. I decided to share my experience basically to help mommies out there who plan to go for contraceptive. I personally found it was hard to find any testimonials or personal experiences on Implanon. I have been googling for quite awhile and noticed not many actually share their experience on Implanon and that made me took awhile before I decide to go for this method.

I don't think I wanna share how Implanon works as you could actually find the information about pros and cons of having Implanon done to your body. If you really read via net, you will find more negative comments than good. I would want to believe that each of us are different, our body maybe made of the same materials but how your body reacts and accept new elements might be different from individual to individual. I am not writing to tell you how good is Implanon cause this is only my first month having that small rod under my arm. I would shared my experience of getting it done and side effects do I have for the last one month.

As you know there are few types of contraceptive. One can go for normal contraceptive pills, or quarterly injections, or a hormone-free IUCD or more daring- an Implanon. Among all of these contraceptive methods, IUCD and pills are more common. Basically, all you need to know is only IUCD is hormone-free so that is the only method that has no effects to your hormones. Why I don't go for IUCD? I have read by a small chance pregnancy may happens if the device is not inserted correctly and that somehow worries me. So, to make the story short I opted for Implanon.

Today marked 1 month I get my Implanon done. So far I have no side effects other than having a little nausea few days after the rod was inserted. I am having my menstrual as usual now just that it wasn't a blood flow but rather brownish spotting. Doctor told me anyone with Implanon may have 4 possibilities on their menstrual patterns.

1. No menstrual at all for good 3 years
2. Having normal menstrual (blood flow) for 5-7 days/month
3. Having spotting for 5-10 days/month
4. Non-stop menstrual for good 3 years (need to consult doctor if this happens as the doctor will prescript medication to stop bleeding but if still not stopping, taking out the Implanon is the only solution)

Implanon is 100% safe as pregnancy won't happen by any chance. Sound syokk right? 🙈 😋
However bear in mind there are few side effects before considering one,

1. 10% body weight increase each year ( due to water retention)
2. Bad ache
3. Mood swing
4. Depression

FYI, among all contraceptive methods, Implanon is more costly for sure. So if it doesn't suit your body, it is kind of wasting money cause once taking out the rod it cannot be reused and there will be some small cost even to remove it. I did mine in PPUM under LPPKN which cost me RM515. Implanon can last for 3 years and in case in between you suddenly dream of wanting baby(babies😛) you can always remove them at any point of time. I am pretty sure it costs more if you go private. I think people in KL are quite lucky cause no queue is needed to get it done in PPUM. All you need to do is to make appointment and get it done when you still on menstrual (just to ensure you are not pregnant). Seriously, no queue needed!

The doctor will open a small hole to insect the small rod but
don't worries she/he will use an anesthetic before inserting the small rod.
She actually use the gun to shoot right to your arm, not like she take out the rod and insert.
I swear not painful at all. 

Don't be freak out with the bruises.
It is normal and this was how it looks like after 1 week.

So this is how the Implanon device looks like. This little gun contained a small 

rod that will be inserted under your arm by a Specialist (no worries).

Every individual who did an implanon will get this card to state all the information about your Implanon such as when it was inserted, the expiry date, insert on left or right hand then the card comes with serial number too. I am not sure if the rod under my arm comes with the same serial number then.

Heidi is here!

I AM BACK!!

After almost a year kan..😝

Obviously year end is the only time I am a little free in office. Recruitment for international school normally will take up to 8 months for the entire process. From interview to hiring to arranging until finally settled down in Malaysia, all and all you have no air to breath as the process is on-going and emails communication as well got tougher due to time difference between countries.

Oh well, my little Heidi is turning 6 months in another couples of days and going to start solid soon. Been too busy that I did not realized Heidi now is able to sit on her own, flipping like a mermaid. How time envy us. So and so, it seems it is easier to handle the second baby perhaps due to prior experience and I would say I am more relax now compare to my first child. I kind of know what to do and what to expect and that would definitely ease so much of unnecessary worries.

I am super grateful that my second pregnancy was totally fine. No Gestational Diabetes (GD) is more than amazing since I was GD during my first pregnancy and worse as I was on high dosage of Insulin from 24weeks up to my pre-planned induced labor day. It was totally a downside when I couldn't enjoy almost everything. You know la how is it feel like when you're craving yet you are not allow to have them. That's just minor, injecting your tummy with Insulin like a drug-addict wasn't fun at all! With Heidi, I was perfectly fine. Enjoying every bite I could. Honestly, I don't actually have much craves this round not sure if it is memang I don't or maybe due to my tight routine everyday that made me lupa to crave. 😅

I have sign of delivering at week 37 when I started spotting since then. Been enjoying the hospital bed and hospital meals with cute doctors as my view (padahal balik2 kana check opening keke) for good 5 days and been spotting throughout yet no sign of labour. I then asked to be discharged to stay home waiting for the right time. The next day, took mom to pasar pagi jalan-jalan kunuk then sekali start water leaking while jalan-jalan. That was around 11am in the morning as I remembered clearly. Arrived PPUM at around 2pm, get checked and doctor confirmed it was 4cm opening so at around 3.30pm I was sent to the maternity ward waiting for the right time to deliver. I personally knew by logic from 4cm to 10cm may take few more hours or maybe days (if you're unlucky) so I didn't expect it will be that soon since I have no contraction pain yet by then. I have a tiny quality time chatting with my husband before he leave to pick up my son. I do feel mild contraction while talking to him but I guess my tolerance to pain is kinda high so I still can talk like normal without any distractions. By 5pm, I insisted my husband to pick up my son as I was thinking he might stuck in traffic when coming back to hospital to send me some food later on.

God's will. The moment he left I then had a super strong contraction pain that I couldn't stop my mouth from shouting (fuk! Ingat balik bikin malu juga oo haha). The pain was too extreme that I could barely change my position from laying to sitting. I still could clearly see the faces of those so happened in the same ward as me. Their husbands looked stunned guess they were imagining gini ka my bini nanti ni ahhh. haha! I pressed the emergency button few times and told the nurse I could feel my baby was down there so I was pushed to active room getting ready for labour. From maternity ward to labour ward I was screaming all the way, I am sorry I didn't even skip when in the lift. I think my voice saja in the lift takut orang. I swore Heidi's head already out, and it's not funny. 😓😨

Down at labour room at 6pm, not even need to push and there you go, Heidi came to the world sharp at 6.30pm on April, 13th without vagina cut, no extra devices, no epidural nothing. Now I understand what the real meaning of the term "macam kentut saja" cause seriously it feels nothing compare to Ian though Ian's time it wasn't that bad cause I delivered him in less than 1 hour too with 1 hour contraction pain only but I guess due to first timer I took time to push and did not grasp the idea of "birak besar-besar" as what the nurse asked to do hahaha!!

The epic part was the father rushing into the labour room 10 mins right after Heidi was born. And again, he missed it. Sigh 😕. Last time Ian's time he went back to bath and arrived 15mins after Ian was born. I remembered his first sentence once he met me in the labour room, "you doesn't look like you just having baby oo..look like easy, bah one more la this time I promised I won't miss it!" (You wish la laki!😠) - I mean it, A pair of beautiful children are perfect for us. Cukup, tutup kilang lah. Going to share my experience on getting the Implanon done in my next post.

So here you go, my throwback moment in labour room with little Heidi and his always-late daddy. 😴

My girl, Heidi Tan R, 

April 13th, 2017 

Do they look alike? 💓

P/S: Btw, it seems my total bill in PPUM still the same as what I paid back in 2013. RM600+ for a night stay. No price increase so far. Best semi-gov hospital, affordable & superb services. Guess now I have extra thousands to shop at Dollcake!😋

Gov vs Private Hospital

Guess this question has never came to an end. Every time one sees you are expecting the first thing they gonna ask if not the gender then it will be which hospital are you going to deliver your baby. Pantai Hospital? (FYI, Pantai is among those expensive private hospital in KL). Oh well, I didn't know if  this is just a norm but I guess some are just too kepoh to know if you are rich enough to bear the delivery cost. LOL

I remembered when I first having my son, I got that a lot as well. But yeah those days I also blur blur first time mommy kan you know lah. When people ask me I normally ask them back which hospitals has good services and reasonable price. All and all, most of them preferred private hospitals rather than government basically with one common reason, government hospitals are lousy, sucks and scary.

3 years ago, private hospitals may ranged averagely from RM3.5k-5k for natural birth and double the price or more for C-Sec depending on hospitals. That's not inclusive of other charges such as Epidural, pain-killer, baby suction etc. That was 3 years ago not sure now. Honestly, I found that is too pricey. I could recalled one of my friend was once said, "Not like you cannot afford what, your husband so rich (rich? millionaire you mean? hehe)". Guess regardless your husband can afford or not, no harm to ease their burden. They also working hard to earn, don't they? Kesian them also ba kan...

Ermm.. I have totally different view after experiencing gov hospital (Jangan kecam saya! LOL). I can't deny I do feel a little hesitate when it comes to government hospitals. With all the horrible stories, of course I feel uneasy as well but despite those bad stories not many actually mention about the good sides of them. Gov has the best range of medications and their baby injections are one of the best, lagi best when it is FOC (kan? Scored!). Go check in private how much in total all the necessary baby injections up to 18months if you don't believe, it may costs you thousands for those mandatory injections. Why not use that money to give your child extra injections such as pneumococcal or rotavirus which are not covered under gov scheme?  I actually had my monthly baby review at a private clinic for my entire pregnancy and the Doctor told me my pregnancy is perfectly fine and baby is in great position, I shouldn't have any problems to deliver naturally. So she suggested me to give a try with PPUM since now they have semi-government wing for maternity/delivery when she herself actually a Gyne in Pantai. Told me not to waste my money for private when not necessary and better use the money for something else especially for the newborn. So, I listened to her advice and give it a try with PPUM. True enough, since they are now semi-government the facilities and services are marvelous. For maternity, they only have standard room with 4 beds with attached toilet in each ward. My husband tried to get a single room but it seems single room only reserved for government servants. But that's ok everything seems brand new since they have just done renovation upon my admission. Back in 2013, my total bill for a natural delivery was RM600+ (1 night stay). Since gov going to increase 50% on medical fee, I am predicting it may goes up maximum around RM1000 only lah (Still cheaper right?). The only thing you cannot request in PPUM is that your husband cannot be in the labor room with you. Since my husband memang penakut (keke) so I don't need this facility then. Scared he might get fainted before me. Wakekeke If you prefer you husband to be in the labor room with you, I think Putrajaya Hospital and Selayang Hospital may be allowed.

I am glad everything goes well when I delivered Ian and even greater I can use the extra thousands that I supposed to spend on baby delivery to his early childhood education. This is the thing, when people know I spend RM1k+ for my son's monthly pre-school fee, many think I am crazy and super kiasu. Many said "He is just 2! Why spend so much on pre-school?! Now I tell you I even pay a high price for my son's babysitter before he goes to school. Crazy? (Yes, I am). I am not like some have their mother/ mother in law/sister/aunty etc who can help to look after their child for free. If you understand what living in the city without relatives means, I pay good price for a peace of mind (Get me?). Come on la, you can spend a bank for delivery, why bother when others choose to spend their money on their child aftercare? Chill lah..

I can see many willing to spend on baby delivery but when the child is ready for nursery/pre-school/enrichment program they suddenly become stingy and started to complain everything is expensive. Indeed, nothing is cheap nowadays we all know that. When you choose to go private hospitals also not cheap mah. Same thing to private schools. If I am kiasu, what are you? (Nah..angry already :D).

If you still don't know where to dump your money, go get your child covers with medical insurance. Or maybe upgrade yourself to an insurance that covers complications during pregnancy. For those unaware about unborn insurance, check out Prudential. They have PRUmy child for your unborn/child (Infant care provides protection during the crucial prenatal, neonatal and post-natal periods)  and PRUlady that covers wide range of women-related illnesses.

Conclusion is, no matter you delivery your child in private or government both also painful right? Both also got scar, both also got cut (Org kampung bilang naragas juga. Wakekeke)

Bah, Happy Midweek lah nothing serious here. LOL

Imma lucky mummy!

Pregnant lady can be so scary. The consistent changes of hormones make them a fierce one, uneasy to handle them too. Though am not in the category of fierce preggo, but my mood sometimes will be hare-wire too. Instead of being fierce, I am rather a crying baby. I get so sensitive with whatever words come out from my hubby's mouth. Am easily upset for nothing. Though most of the time I know he didn't mean anything, but I still will ended up crying. I couldn't take any jokes, especially when it comes to "who's going to look after my baby" topic. I get so so sensitive with the topic as I know I need to find a nanny or nursery for my little ones, which I believe none of the parents willing to do so if they have a choice.

Too bad, I know I can't get rid of the topic forever. Soon the time will come, and I still need to face it no matter what. Time to time, hubby will try to raise the topic yet at every moment I will end up upset and crying. It's truly hard. Even now writing about this I feel sour in my throat. :( It's hurt to face the fact that I need to send my little baby to someone else. So sorry baby, how mummy wish mummy have choice. :(

Okey forget about sad thing as there is many more to cherish during this amazing journey..

Thanks God for sending me a good husband. Reaching my 31 weeks, life has changed dramatically. Not just on me, but to my husband too. I believe this journey has thought him to be more patience, sensitive and attentive. Since the day we knew we're expecting, he did his best as a partner and a father. Being so sick in my first few months, having him to stay up whole night and pat me till I fall asleep were something that I couldn't imagine. Even until today, he never complain anything about my changing behavior. Guess he knows this is just a temporary me. 

Best is he is helping me out as much as he can. From cooking to washing clothes, from sweeping to cleaning toilets were all his tasks now.  I have no complain on his cooking as long I don't need to be in the kitchen cause the frying smell do makes me more sick! I am glad he is quite helpful when it comes to household chores. Isn't I am a lucky lady? I know I am. :)

Dear Kaka,

I know sometimes I can be so ridiculous for crying not being able to watch the TV channel that I want or when you refused to buy me durian (haha!), but I know you know I still love you the same. I apology for that ya baby. Thanks for consistently comforting me and letting me win at whatever situations. You are the best my big boy! 

XOXO,
Sayang..

Happy bullying my Kaka! Haha!

Baby very first books!

Reaching the 4th month, I feel much much better now. Since I have been home during weekends for long, we have decided to go for "Big Bad Wolf" book fair. Spending almost 3 hours there, manage to get some children books for my little ones. I know it may sound weird to some for reading to baby before he is born but to me I do believe in education from the heart, which means we can start anything that build good bonding between mummy/daddy and baby. In this matter, I don't see it as to make my baby to be a genius but to have a great bonding and communication between us. :)

Starting from baby 3 months old, hubby and I took turn to read for him. It feels so much love when baby responded to hubby's voice. Other than reading, before bed I'll play Mozart and Beethoven music to him. Time to time, am as well play Surah-surah Nabi to calm him down. All downloaded to my HP so that I can play them at anytime anywhere!

Until today, I still couldn't believe that I have my baby in me now. It's just so wonderful until I've forgotten all the pains I've been through during my pregnancy. Sick also happy, drowsy also happy, headache also happy, even vomit also happy. See, how great a baby can brings to our life. It's just so amazing. 

Baby, mummy and daddy couldn't wait to see you. Grow healthy ok. Love you, my baby boo!

All for you my little ones!

My 1st Trimester

Recalled back my first 3 months, it's actually gave me a little goosebumps. Not that terrible but it was not easy. However the funniest thing is after the day doctor confirmed that I am expecting, I suddenly became so sick! hahaha Tiba-tiba I feel dizzy, nausea, feel like vomiting all the time! My manja-ness started already, uhukss!

I guess it is really half real sickness and half manja also la. I actually started with bad headache. Night sleep become a nightmare when I need to ensure the 'minyak kapak' is next to me. Then a week later, I started to puke out whatever I eat and it get worsen when it followed with heartburn. Oh the heartburn part is seriously unbearable and terrible! After every meal, I feel the heartburn and drowsy at the same time. So to ease the pain, I supposedly make myself vomit a bit then it feels much better after that. Am not sure if all preggy do feel the same as I feel so hot all the time too!

During my first trimester we spent almost every weekend at home as am not well and being in crowded place makes me more sick. Luckily my kaka okey with it cause not just us cannot go out, even him need to totally cut down his lepak time with his friends due to my manja-ness. :p One thing am proud with my baby is he is actually quite sporting cause during my first 3 months, since chinese pantang not to share the news too early so still do my outdoor job running here and there. Rushing up and down to the Immigration office at Putrajaya for teacher's work permit, went to Tax office and EPF office were my routine. Thanks God for giving me a good health to still continuously doing my work and protect my journey too. Thanks baby for always being there with mummy..You're truly mummy's strength, Love.

I'm 12 weeks old already, mummy!

We're pregnant!

Holaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

Finally I'm here again! Yeah it's been like more than half year I didn't update anything in my blog oo kan..oh well..since today I am quite free as teachers were off due to haze, so I try to write something la ok. (sound so terpaksa oo kan..) To be frank, since am expecting I am damn lazy..all I want is to sleep sleep and sleep! =_=

Oh how time flies... I am already in my 31 weeks today and I never even blog anything about my wonderful journey right..sigh..again hormones kicks and I am just so lazy, tired and sleepy. To start the story with, am actually found out am expecting when am about 2 weeks late. Since we have been trying for quite some time so I didn't do any test as normally it will turn up negative. So that night since I still have some left over HPT, I cincai test la. 

1st test---> Without a second, super clear double lines! My eyes turned big! Still, I couldn't believe what I saw. So, I continued with second test. 

2nd test---> Super duper clear double lines!! Oh God!! I was so surprise & at that very moment my tears started to drop, very heavily. I really don't know what to feel cause for the very first time I saw double lines among all the tests I have done for the past one year. It's not easy to accept the truth, even it is a happy one. Feelings mixed up I have. Only God knows how thankful and happy I am at that moment but at the same time I didn't know what to expect. I actually started to worry if I am ready for this, or if I am actually prepared enough to be a mother. I mean a good mother.

I wiped my tears. The first thing popped out in my mind is to share the good news with my very close buddy. I sent him my positive HPT with a smile icon. He was so excited! So do me! Again, my tears dropped. Actually that night both hubby and I were out with our friends separately, so when I reached home he was actually still with his friends. Initially, I was thinking to get JJ & Ean to gotcha him then after that surprise him with the good news,  but once he reached home thing turned up differently when I suddenly cried and hugged him without a word. He seems understand what am I feeling at that time (not this time baby! haha). So as usual he told me to stay positive and we can always try again and again. I then pointed him a nicely wrapped box (with ribbon of course!) and asked him to open it. Without asking further, he opened the box and..........SURPRISE!! Looking at his priceless reaction, I started to laugh and cry at the same time. We took quite a while hugging each other, dropping our happy tears for God's precious gift. It's just a wonderful night.

The night, we couldn't even rest our eyes. We were so excited and keep talking about our little ones. Thinking of what should we buy, what should we name him/her, what should we do during this pregnancy, bla and bla..We keep chitchatting until dawn appeared then very early morning had our breakfast and went to do check up to reconfirm the news. Thanks God, everything goes well. I was in my 5 weeks at that time! 

Am so grateful to finally see that happy face, priceless!

We're pregnant!