Imma lucky mummy!

Pregnant lady can be so scary. The consistent changes of hormones make them a fierce one, uneasy to handle them too. Though am not in the category of fierce preggo, but my mood sometimes will be hare-wire too. Instead of being fierce, I am rather a crying baby. I get so sensitive with whatever words come out from my hubby's mouth. Am easily upset for nothing. Though most of the time I know he didn't mean anything, but I still will ended up crying. I couldn't take any jokes, especially when it comes to "who's going to look after my baby" topic. I get so so sensitive with the topic as I know I need to find a nanny or nursery for my little ones, which I believe none of the parents willing to do so if they have a choice.

Too bad, I know I can't get rid of the topic forever. Soon the time will come, and I still need to face it no matter what. Time to time, hubby will try to raise the topic yet at every moment I will end up upset and crying. It's truly hard. Even now writing about this I feel sour in my throat. :( It's hurt to face the fact that I need to send my little baby to someone else. So sorry baby, how mummy wish mummy have choice. :(

Okey forget about sad thing as there is many more to cherish during this amazing journey..

Thanks God for sending me a good husband. Reaching my 31 weeks, life has changed dramatically. Not just on me, but to my husband too. I believe this journey has thought him to be more patience, sensitive and attentive. Since the day we knew we're expecting, he did his best as a partner and a father. Being so sick in my first few months, having him to stay up whole night and pat me till I fall asleep were something that I couldn't imagine. Even until today, he never complain anything about my changing behavior. Guess he knows this is just a temporary me. 

Best is he is helping me out as much as he can. From cooking to washing clothes, from sweeping to cleaning toilets were all his tasks now.  I have no complain on his cooking as long I don't need to be in the kitchen cause the frying smell do makes me more sick! I am glad he is quite helpful when it comes to household chores. Isn't I am a lucky lady? I know I am. :)

Dear Kaka,

I know sometimes I can be so ridiculous for crying not being able to watch the TV channel that I want or when you refused to buy me durian (haha!), but I know you know I still love you the same. I apology for that ya baby. Thanks for consistently comforting me and letting me win at whatever situations. You are the best my big boy! 

XOXO,
Sayang..

Happy bullying my Kaka! Haha!

Baby very first books!

Reaching the 4th month, I feel much much better now. Since I have been home during weekends for long, we have decided to go for "Big Bad Wolf" book fair. Spending almost 3 hours there, manage to get some children books for my little ones. I know it may sound weird to some for reading to baby before he is born but to me I do believe in education from the heart, which means we can start anything that build good bonding between mummy/daddy and baby. In this matter, I don't see it as to make my baby to be a genius but to have a great bonding and communication between us. :)

Starting from baby 3 months old, hubby and I took turn to read for him. It feels so much love when baby responded to hubby's voice. Other than reading, before bed I'll play Mozart and Beethoven music to him. Time to time, am as well play Surah-surah Nabi to calm him down. All downloaded to my HP so that I can play them at anytime anywhere!

Until today, I still couldn't believe that I have my baby in me now. It's just so wonderful until I've forgotten all the pains I've been through during my pregnancy. Sick also happy, drowsy also happy, headache also happy, even vomit also happy. See, how great a baby can brings to our life. It's just so amazing. 

Baby, mummy and daddy couldn't wait to see you. Grow healthy ok. Love you, my baby boo!

All for you my little ones!

My 1st Trimester

Recalled back my first 3 months, it's actually gave me a little goosebumps. Not that terrible but it was not easy. However the funniest thing is after the day doctor confirmed that I am expecting, I suddenly became so sick! hahaha Tiba-tiba I feel dizzy, nausea, feel like vomiting all the time! My manja-ness started already, uhukss!

I guess it is really half real sickness and half manja also la. I actually started with bad headache. Night sleep become a nightmare when I need to ensure the 'minyak kapak' is next to me. Then a week later, I started to puke out whatever I eat and it get worsen when it followed with heartburn. Oh the heartburn part is seriously unbearable and terrible! After every meal, I feel the heartburn and drowsy at the same time. So to ease the pain, I supposedly make myself vomit a bit then it feels much better after that. Am not sure if all preggy do feel the same as I feel so hot all the time too!

During my first trimester we spent almost every weekend at home as am not well and being in crowded place makes me more sick. Luckily my kaka okey with it cause not just us cannot go out, even him need to totally cut down his lepak time with his friends due to my manja-ness. :p One thing am proud with my baby is he is actually quite sporting cause during my first 3 months, since chinese pantang not to share the news too early so still do my outdoor job running here and there. Rushing up and down to the Immigration office at Putrajaya for teacher's work permit, went to Tax office and EPF office were my routine. Thanks God for giving me a good health to still continuously doing my work and protect my journey too. Thanks baby for always being there with mummy..You're truly mummy's strength, Love.

I'm 12 weeks old already, mummy!

We're pregnant!

Holaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

Finally I'm here again! Yeah it's been like more than half year I didn't update anything in my blog oo kan..oh well..since today I am quite free as teachers were off due to haze, so I try to write something la ok. (sound so terpaksa oo kan..) To be frank, since am expecting I am damn lazy..all I want is to sleep sleep and sleep! =_=

Oh how time flies... I am already in my 31 weeks today and I never even blog anything about my wonderful journey right..sigh..again hormones kicks and I am just so lazy, tired and sleepy. To start the story with, am actually found out am expecting when am about 2 weeks late. Since we have been trying for quite some time so I didn't do any test as normally it will turn up negative. So that night since I still have some left over HPT, I cincai test la. 

1st test---> Without a second, super clear double lines! My eyes turned big! Still, I couldn't believe what I saw. So, I continued with second test. 

2nd test---> Super duper clear double lines!! Oh God!! I was so surprise & at that very moment my tears started to drop, very heavily. I really don't know what to feel cause for the very first time I saw double lines among all the tests I have done for the past one year. It's not easy to accept the truth, even it is a happy one. Feelings mixed up I have. Only God knows how thankful and happy I am at that moment but at the same time I didn't know what to expect. I actually started to worry if I am ready for this, or if I am actually prepared enough to be a mother. I mean a good mother.

I wiped my tears. The first thing popped out in my mind is to share the good news with my very close buddy. I sent him my positive HPT with a smile icon. He was so excited! So do me! Again, my tears dropped. Actually that night both hubby and I were out with our friends separately, so when I reached home he was actually still with his friends. Initially, I was thinking to get JJ & Ean to gotcha him then after that surprise him with the good news,  but once he reached home thing turned up differently when I suddenly cried and hugged him without a word. He seems understand what am I feeling at that time (not this time baby! haha). So as usual he told me to stay positive and we can always try again and again. I then pointed him a nicely wrapped box (with ribbon of course!) and asked him to open it. Without asking further, he opened the box and..........SURPRISE!! Looking at his priceless reaction, I started to laugh and cry at the same time. We took quite a while hugging each other, dropping our happy tears for God's precious gift. It's just a wonderful night.

The night, we couldn't even rest our eyes. We were so excited and keep talking about our little ones. Thinking of what should we buy, what should we name him/her, what should we do during this pregnancy, bla and bla..We keep chitchatting until dawn appeared then very early morning had our breakfast and went to do check up to reconfirm the news. Thanks God, everything goes well. I was in my 5 weeks at that time! 

Am so grateful to finally see that happy face, priceless!

We're pregnant!