Ari ni sia mangantuk lagi..

"Ari ni ari Minggu, ari untuk mansau-mansau...!
ari ni ari Minggu, ari untuk ampai-ampai..!"

Yeah Jesse..ari ni baru ari ampat budu!!
bisuk baru mo ari lima...(mulao kah di Kollo?!)
lately gini la ba ni..ngantuk saja..
Monday ngantuk sikit-sikit..
Tuesday ngantuk banyak sikit..
Wednesday ngantuk lebih sikit..
Thursday? Paling ngantuk la......ZzZzZzzzz
Harap-harap bisuk nda pura-pura MC laa kan LLo...=_="

Adui! baru pukul 4:27 ba kan....:(
Sigh...Sighhh...Sighhhhhh.......
Sy mo pulang tido!
Guess sampai time suda sia mau jadi fulltime housewife ba ni..
cause all I want now is to sleep, sleep, & sleep...!
Jadi housewife sure buli ampai-ampai sampai lugai-lugai... (Imaginasi ko tu ba LLo..LOL)

:(

Yasmin Ahmad - "Greetings"

4 Jiwa 2 Cinta 1 Cerita

Biar ia bermula dengan AKU,
Kerna AKU, ada KAMU,
Biar KAMU mengakhiri semua,
Kerna DIA, ada KAMU.

Siapakah KAMU?
Benarkah DIA?
Sanggupkah AKU?
Tiada yang tau...
Tentang Aku, Dia & Kamu...

Poem by: Rian, Jakarta

Terima Kasih Rian for the beautiful words!:D

Stop crying, stupid!

A million words would not bring you back,

She knows cause she has tried,

And a million tears even sucks,

She knows because she has cried.

She smile when she feels like crying,

She act like she is okey,

When she really falling apart inside,

She let it go,

She moves on because..

There is nothing else she can do or say

Where did life go?

And why did it run away?

And how come everything has to change?

Remember girl...

You laugh and the world laughs with you,

You cry and the world laughs at you..

You choose!

-The Satan!-

Good Night, Babe...

Happiness is like a butterfly,

It is just beautiful,

I feel so wonderful,

When you are here with me, thoughtful

But I don't know why,

I can see the emptiness in you,

When every time I look at you,

The sorrow shows in your smile,

Please do not lie,

cause the heart would never die,

It listen..

Perhaps that is not a lie,

but to hide from the eye,

Too bad I am not blind,

For you to decline...

Can Love really be that kind?

or teach one how to mind?

Cause I wondered,

From where you find,

The courage not to define.

A perfect one I am not,

But thankful for the one I've got,

Let me complete the night,

By saying it right.

Miss you good night...:)

I feel like Writing...

I feel like writing,
About Her
She gets a funny feeling,
it comes from deep inside.
She gets all mad and angry,
wanting to go and hide.

I feel like writing,
About Her
She calls it depression,
Her dad says “it's just YOU”.
But the thoughts and feelings,
no one will ever be able, able to know.

I feel like writing,
About Her
Emptiness builds a home in this woman,
Her screams is loud yet so dim,
Piercing her tortured soul,
What horrors she befell.

I feel like crying,
About Her
Each time I pass her by,
I know how much does she hurts,
When she is too big, too big to cry...

My Lovely Piñata...

Life is like Piñata,
Hit it, hit it, hit it,
I cant lose my aim,
Once I lose, I'll lose my way.

Love is like Piñata,
It is colourful yet so complicated,
Rich with shapes that may lead to confusions,
Hard to break yet sweet to taste.

Man is like Piñata, too,
the bright colors of the piñata symbolize their temptation,
the blindfold represents faith,
and the stick is virtue or the will to overcome sin.

I found my perfect Piñata,
A man who calls me beautiful instead of hot,
who calls me back when I hang up on him,
who will lie under the stars and listen to my heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch me sleep...

I found my lovely Piñata,
A man who kisses my forehead,
who wants to show me off to the world when I am in sweats,
who holds my hand in front of his friends,
who thinks I am just as pretty without makeup on.
One who is constantly reminding me of how much he cares
and how lucky he is to have me....

And the one who turns to his friends and says, "that's her."
Too bad the lovely Pinata lived in a separate world of mine,
I did stepped into his world, sometimes
Trying to be there all the time, yet impossible..

Pinata O Pinata,
Who are you?
And why you are here?

LOVE vs LIFE...

Another 4 days is exactly 2 months I had long distance relationship with my love one..nothing much i can say but just feels like time goes as fast as flash....Lately I think life is much enjoyable each day when we have the courage to work hard for living...especially when you finally found a job that suit you well...So i cherish every moment I had now & try to be as happy as I could...There are things in our life that don’t go the way we want them to or the way we think they should, but we can’t dwell on these because we’ll missout on some other opportunities…Sometimes we tend to give up just because we don’t think things will work…well you won’t know unless you give it a try right..?

I’ve learned that things change, people change, and it doesn’t mean we forget the past or try to cover it up…it simply means that we move on and treasure the memories…I understand there is time when we feel like hard to accept new changes in our life but I did learnt that the more we try to keep things the same as we used to...the more tougher it can be…plus you never learn new things & letting yourself hiding at your own cubical..Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, it means accepting that some things weren’t meant to be anymore…

They are people that tend to change their partners or situations…Bear in mind that we can’t change the world but we have the capabilities to change ourselves…We can choose to change our perceptions of a person or situation..accept it as it is…be positive & stop judging others…Pushing a person to change only will change you in the end…why not learn to love, accept & discover slowly...

For me, a relationship should make you feel complete in every way…It’s like a jig-saw puzzle, there are pieces that you could make fit in a certain spot, but there’s only one that truly fits…I can say love is the greatest feeling we will ever have, as what a friend told me last night...Remember that not much people has chance to love & to be loved...so appreciate the moment...I agreed with him...but yet it is also one of the greatest sorrows that would let you walk in the dark…There is so much suffering, but then there are times when the tears,pain,heartache is worth to be gone through…Of course beginnings are usually scary, endings are usually sad..but the middle is what really counts!That’s the reason why I stayed with my love…Duration of a relationship is not important..what most important is how much efforts you may put in it or how much thing you have done to your partner within that period...how long a couple being together is just a symbol of digit...it means nothing without great efforts & cares...

I always think that love doesn’t mean everything…love without efforts for better life mean nothing…love only itself will never make u live to the fullest…with great efforts to make life better is a great point to make love complete in its own way…just like when u want your partner to company u all the time…remember that company doesn’t mean security…to be by your side 24/7 cannot proof his sincerity anyway and that time then you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises…

Well, I’ve learned that life is like hour glass sand…Sooner or later, everything hits rock bottom…but all we have to do is be patient and wait for something to turn everything back around…!

God bless!

Love Kollo~

This is truely how I feel...

It was Friday night.Guess was around 12.15am.I just reached KL & was waiting at the LCCT airport, sitting on my purple color luggage waiting for him to come. Because of his busy schedule he just couldnt manage to go back with me this time.He is in his career enhancement at this moment. I understand.

I received text message from him saying that he already reached & saw he waved to me with great smile.I knew he missed me as I do & I hurriedly get him.We went to a restaurant to have our late supper. While waiting for our food. He started his first conversation, "Darling, I have to tell you something". Many things occupied my mind that time. I don't have any clue of what he is going to tell me.Is he thinking of breaking up with me? But why?! That was the first thing occupied my mind. I know it's impossible but I just couldnt control my negative thought.After a long silence, I broke the silent by asking him. "Dear,what is it?" Without a second of breath taking, this is what i heard from him. "Honey, I've passed my visa, next wednesday will be my flight to Abu Dhabi, all the requirements and documents were all settled. Just waiting for my income tax to be cleared. I don't want to leave you and my family but this is an opportunity that I don't want to spoil, hope you'll understand. You know how much I love you and I really hate to go. I will miss you darling. It's just a year or two. I hope that you will wait for me."

I remember about the offer he told me since last year but I'm not expecting this will be that soon. He will be leaving me a week from now. I controlled myself not to cry because I didn't want him to worry about me, there were so many things needed to be done & take care of.

The following days, he tried his best to be by my side whenever he has the chance to do so. We talked about everything again and again, promised each other that we wouldn't let anything get between the two of us. I told him that I still be here when he comes back and we'll go on love each other. And I promise to wait for him. The truth was I didn't want him to go.It's hurt.

It's been almost a month now we had our long distance love. Still, it is fresh in my memories. It is really hard to be in a long distance relationship. To be far and away to someone you love. There are times that I want to give up because I can't really bear the pain inside.But I don't want to have a feeling of regret.Our feelings for each other is still mutual and as long as we're not losing communication.I know our relationship will nurture inspite of the fact that we're miles apart and I can fulfill my promise to wait for him. May God always takes good care of him & comes back to see me smile again...

Love,

Ritchee...