A Muslim convert, is it hard?

I was called to write this post. It's sad to know some of my fellow friends got bullied for something they are not aware of..I am sharing based on what exactly I've been through, nothing personal but a true story.

Let's start with convert to Islam.

To start with, I converted after getting married to my Muslim born husband. Many out there were told they are required to convert even when they just got engaged. Erm, I guess that was what your aunty sebelah bapa punya cousin punya anak tell you right? Ka Ketua Kampung? I wasn't a Muslim until the week to my nikah day. I wasn't a Muslim when I was engaged. Tell you ladies, if you choose to convert upon your engagement is a choice you made. Just because your partner is a Muslim, you are not obliged to convert until you are officially married. If you converts upon your engagement due to the reason you would like to learn in depth about the religion that's absolutely a great move, other than that there is no law saying you have to convert upon engagement.

A friend of mine who converted upon engagement solely because of love. The biggest decision she made and thought that would last till marriage, unfortunately it did not turn out well. She broke up with her fiance a year after their engagement. She is now with a non-Muslim bf and has doubted her decision converting to Islam when deep inside she is not ready to be one. Who's going to be responsible of her not practicing Islam now? Nobody kan, fiance yang beria-ia suruh convert suda jadi ex, ex pun cari gf lain suda lo. Love can be so blind at time, think carefully before making drastic decisions in life. Tunang saja belum lagi kawin, anything can happen, fikir-fikirkan lah jangan terlampau ikut perasaan orang bilang. And again, doubt or not there is no turning back.


What is your Muslim name?

Once people know you are a convert, they would like to know your new name. Many of us will just blindly follow the trend. Anyone who converts has a Muslim name you also follow la kan. In Malaysia, like it or not you are required to choose a Muslim name when you register at Jabatan Agama. BUT many do not aware they do not require to totally remove their original name. For example, if your original name is Tan Ceng Lok, you can choose your Muslim name as Tan Ceng Lok bin Abdullah. No need to purposely choose Adam Shamil bin Abdullah (Hi Adam..wink wink~). But if you still think Adam Shamil sounds better then go ahead la, no harm. I just wanna tell you do not feel oblige to change your name. Remember your original name was given by your parent who raise you up, who loves you first before anyone else, why remove it when your religion change? Don't, don't do that. It hurts your father who gives you a name, it hurts your mother who hugs you no matter how smelly you are. At least if you really want to have a Muslim name, try to keep your surname in your new name. Your religion and name may be changed, but not what you inherited. I believe your parent would be grateful for that little thought.

Do I change my IC after convert?

Again, it is not compulsory. Honestly I don't. I stick with my original Chinese name in my IC (so that I can go clubbing without kena rotan hahaha no lahh..!). Let me tell you why. All properties/liabilities owned will be based on the name used in your IC. I bought my first house and car with my original name and it was after I convert. So, if I change my IC to my Muslim name (even just addition of binti Abdullah), I will need to change the name in all my liabilities and please note amending name in legal documents is not free, it involves legal parties that may cost me unnecessary amount. Since it doesn't affect much so I decided to stick with my original name to make life easier. BUT I don't know if I am just a little unlucky. I have issue with my daughter's birth cert. JPN refused to issue my daughter's birth cert due to my original name in IC yet I am a Muslim in record. So, to make fuss they insisted me to redo my IC but to put "Islam" in my IC. I argued the case as I managed to get my son's birth cert with the same old IC without religion on it. The officer told me "sekarang dah tak boleh, semua converts kena ada Islam dalam IC kalau tak memang tak lepas surat beranak anak you ni." To make story short, I made a trip to the JPN during my confinement (with my muka hudu of course @#$%^&*) to redo my IC to state my religion on it but my original name remained the same. I am not sure if this is only happened in West Malaysia, but I kena lah. (Semua pasal heidi lai ni. hihi nda bah)

What is my name in Passport?

Your passport name will be following your name in IC. So my original name it is. Sometimes, I will be questioned by the immigration officer at the airport if I have converted due to my Chinese name in my passport, especially when I travel with the kids alone. They made it sounds like I am child-trafficking my own children. Haha! But that's only happened in Malaysia airport. I hardly encounter such issue abroad I bet people don't bother what your beliefs. And also, I am not allowed to be my son's guardian for his passport due to my Chinese name & no "Islam" in my IC when I applied one for him. Kesian kan, but I managed to be my daughter's guardian for her passport because by then my IC has "Islam" already. But not a big deal la, I still can take my son travels with me though I am not his guardian in passport. Who can stop me? I am his Mother Halooooo!

What is your children bangsa ah?

Ahhh good question. I am a Sino-Kadazan & my husband is Jawa-Bugis. My children are Sino-Native (Chinese mixed with more than one Sabah ethnic/tribe).  Isn't one can only choose either the race of the father or the mother? YES for certain race. For example, if an Indian married to a Kadazan or Melayu married to Chinese, you cannot write Indian-Kadazan or Chinese-Melayu because no such category in the system. You will need to choose either Indian or Kadazan or Chinese or Melayu. But if you are Chinese/Sino married to any Sabah ethnics, you can be a Sino-"______"(the tribe that you married with) or be a Sino-Native. Syok kan. If marries to Orang putih normally put Eurasian/Caucasian etc la kali kan, itu mau tanya yg kawin org putih tu sy pun x pasti.

How you manage to remove your children bin/binti ooo?

Frankly speaking, I do not remove anything from their names la. Who made up this story oo?haha they just weren't there since beginning. We're lucky enough to deal with a nice Malay officer in the Putrajaya JPN who explained to us it is not compulsory to put bin/binti/AL/AP/AK to your child's name. That's how we found out. So we decided not to put bin/binti to our children name but replaced with my Chinese surname into their names instead. Those bin/binti all has no extra benefits as Malaysia citizens, so don't worry to remove them.

Can your children open ASB account?

Yes, but with so much hassle. I think this is only happened in West cause in East it seems no issues.  AGAIN, I have problem to open my son's ASB due to my Chinese name in IC. The bank officer claimed that if the guardian has a Chinese name & they are Pribumi Sabah, the only way is to get it done in Sabah because in West they did not recognised Chinese name as Bumi bukan macam in East. I don't believe in this so I tried my luck at the PNB Head Quarters Jalan Tun Razak. With all the supporting documents, I managed to open ASB account for my son. Boooo!! For my girl, I just tried my luck at Maybank branch and I managed to get her one without any hassles. Ntah la, I think this is all depending on the officer juga la kan. Jap boleh jap tak boleh I also fed up oo.

Some even ask me in case la ko bercerai sama laki ko, will you get the child custody? (that's a bit too far babe..ermmm)

To answer this question I can only tell you what I know ok. Remember this my dear, regardless of you are newly convert or born as a Muslim you are as equal as other Muslims. There is no such thing that you are less Islam just because you are a convert as compare to those born as Muslim. We are all equal in Islam. So to answer that question, yes you are eligible for your child custody. Based on laws, children below 7 of age will be prioritised to the mother except the mother has conditions that unable her to be the child guardian. So, jangan la risau you cannot fight for your rights to get your child custody in case divorce happens, but palis-palis jauh jauh harap-harap nda la ba sampai berpisah kan. Kesian tu anak-anak, susah lagi tu bini mau cari laki baru. kikikikiki Nda ba jangan marah.


Bah suda la, just sharing k no hard feelings. Biarpun macam-macam dugaan as a convert, but I am happy with my life, I really do. Not perfect macam fairy-tales, teda la ba sampai kana bili ferrari but sorou po ada laki yang rajin pi bili telur, ingat flush jamban lepas kancing, rajin pi tapao durian sampai sy batuk-batuk (apa lagi xbagus bossku?LOL). Kalo ada yang terasa hati I am sorry, I just kesian ramai converts out there kena buli-buli for something they are not aware of, then blindly follow without questioning. Educate yourself people, ask when in doubt. X

It's been a while..

It's been a while before I really sit down and browsed back what do I have in my blog. For no reason, I spent my whole morning reading. In fact, it has no longer been my habit since working with GIS. I know I've been putting so much focus on work lately since am just shifting to a new field. It's fine, at least at this point.

Oh well, it's October already. Somebody has thrown a 'regular' question on my 2013 resolution. As usual, I do not know what she expect me to answer but am apparently not the type who believes in such norm. To me, that's nonsense without any aims or actions. Talking about resolution, people will normally relate it with ambition or dreams. People around me will sometimes feel that I am overly ambitious, and that my aims are pie in the sky. (Well said!) but this is not likely to change me, not at all. I’d always rather aim high and take on the adventure of life than get to the end of the road regretting that I didn't have a good go at making my dreams come true. However, one of my primary lessons in life will be related to this. I know I have always wanting the best for me and people around me, sometimes I get so frustrated towards things that for me it not supposed to be in that way (Jesse, no such thing in the World should be in one specific way, babe. Wake up!) Yeah I think I really need to learn that there are limits to what I am capable of, and how to recognize them. Making sure my goals are actually practical enough to be achieved is another side of this one.

Lately I have read this book named "Your personality is your key in life". Love the book. It says something good about the Sagi. Basically, those who born as Sagi has good personal growth and understanding. That's their key aspect. The Sagi's hate the idea of waltzing blindly through life without understanding, or finding its meaning. This seems like a bit of a contradiction because I am quite a part animal too, but I do have this deeper side to my character. Best thing is the Sagi is born as half man and half beast, as the book said. That describes the way they live their lives perfectly. Remember the Centaur has a bow and arrow and is aiming at the sky? That is obviously shows that they are predominantly high ambitions. Oh ya, do you believe in timing? If you have a great sense of timing, you will know just when to make your move. Trust your gut feeling, so call on it when you need it.

Let's talk about my life then. Nothing has changed as we were still remain the same. I would say I am lucky that I am so positive in life. Because of that, I see the possibilities as endless. I never take no for an answer and i always see the cup as half full, not half empty. My genuine interest in getting to the truth and be part of whatever environment I am in, but frankly I am easily bored if the mental stimulation is missing, especially in work and relationship. Lots of people don’t get where am  coming from. They said I am serious about relationships, but I need a ton of stimulation and variety to keep love alive. Shall I say it is because of I like to try something fresh and new? Ahah...Wink Wink~

And now is work. Do I like my job? Yes? No? Maybe. About 5 weeks at new place, all I can say is fun, fun to see different type of characters.  Too early to judge. Basically I am fine with everything, yeah I mean everything. As long as I am allowed to make choices about how I do my work, or else I won’t work at my best. I rely very much on  myself, and if I was given a free hand, I’ll do great work, I hope people will see this side of my personality at its best.

Baby? (Toughest topic ever!)

I already sent our little prayers to the Almighty, guess He is yet to receive it. Or maybe He is busy looking into the database, searching for a beautiful Ritchee baby for us. :) I know our day sure will come, just need a little more patience + passion. Nothing much will hold  us back, and even when the odd adversity arises I’ll see it as part of my  learning curve and accept it with a smile. At least I am blessed to have an annoying yet a loving ones. 

To all my friends out there who is trying like us, keep on trying. Never ever give up.  Believe in your destiny and be glad with whatever comes to you. I learn to accept whatever possibilities that life may offer to me, that's not only making me a simple yet happy person, it does makes me feel so beautiful inside. :)

Have a pleasant evening, u'ol!

Hey Juliet, why you so sad?

Sad women always get up
to make breakfast for their children,
To tell him, ''have a nice day''
Sad women go to work and always do their best,
they make lunch and always sit last,
Sad women buy groceries on the way home,
make phone calls to hear someone's voice,
they are faithful to their promises,
Sad women take upon other's grief
Sad women comfort others and say
''everything will be okay'',
they don't let their sadness to come out,
Sad women don't have time to be sad,
Sad women cry when lights go out.. 

Daria Mateja Domitrovich

Everything gonna be okey Juliet. 
Don't be sad. 
You'll be fine.
Fuck the people who make you sad.
Ok, let's have colonel burger for lunch.

Happiness is a choice. Choose happy.

Happiness is a choice. Choose HAPPY!

Friday, and the day before...

"...So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.” 

Wednesday, the day.

Mingling whole night, sleepless night. Trying to find out what have I gain throughout the past 28 years and what had missing in my life.  Turning from the day one when I could freshly recalled how my mum busy getting me ready to school, preparing unfinished meals, handling all the households, staying up just to ensure everybody is safe, that’s where I started to understand what Love is. I am thankful for the wonderful ways she had brought us up, so that when one day (which had actually happened long ago) when I walk out from the door, I am able to stand on my own feet and be proud. Today is the day she was born and at that very moment, it has stated she will be my mother. Happy Birthday Hottie! Be healthy and pretty always! Thanks God for such a beautiful gift.

Well, today wasn’t really a good day. Sometimes other’s happy news can be a painful one to us. But that’s fine, I am happy for what God have granted them as I believe God have plans for every each of us. So still is an amazing thing to celebrate the joys they may share and at the same time keep praying the best for my own. Guess the one thing that does keep me moving is when I know I have someone who loved me as much as I do. Relationship would lead you to good or bad. For mine, I am thankful for all the joy and painful moments that we have been through as I can see for all that happened, it opens ways for us to love each other even more and lead to a better tomorrow.

I discovered best relationship is when the two of you can act like lovers and best friends at the same time. It’s when you have more playful moments than serious moments. It’s when you can joke around with no hard feelings, have unexpected hugs, and random kisses. It’s when you two give each other that specific stare and just smile. It’s when you’ll rather chill inside to watch movies that you may not like, eat junk food on bed, and cuddle than go out all the time. It’s when you will stay up all nights just to settle arguments and fights. It’s when you can completely act yourself and they can still love you for who you are.

Thanks babe for making me feel this way. You know who you are. J

Finally.

Wah it's been awhile am not posting anything in my blog, my peminat setia also complaining suda..hehe

Well 2 weeks being jobless, macam-macam I buat and I tak sempat buat. I started to make my long wishlist since the day I threw "Love Letter" to my Boss. hehe It seems everything I wanna do before starting any new job, but sekali macam-macam juga la I not terbuat.

My so called wishlist kunun..

1. Sleep until 12 everyday!
(Not so bad, I wake up almost that hour everyday, only those days when my Kaka not working then abis la kena force wake up at 8am for jogging!! Isshhhhh...plg malas la me jogging early morning oo! The time I use to get ready is longer than my jogging time I guess..LOL

2. Holiday!
Okey better not to mention about this. Or else my api will naik sampai terbakar ni rumah OoO! Macam biasa la if holiday tak jadi semua because of one person only. You know I know la..kin panas!! Nevermind, I remember your promise for year end holiday break k, babe..(You better watch out!:@)

3. House cleaning
Opss! Did I just mention about sweep-vocumn-mop the floor, washing dishes, doing laudry, cleaning dust, brushing toilet, polishing glass windows and arranging the store room? Palan-palan ba..kekeke Paling not sanggup wei when is comes to bab kasi bersih rumah. So many things to do lei..later weekend Elmay come baru clean a bit la..seriously this part I so lazy lei..Shall I pujuk my Kaka hire a daily-maid ah? ( Banyak cantek ko Kollo..)hehe

4. Visiting all my friends
Okey been doing this but it seems sometimes our time is not match and that make it even harder to meet. Since everyone is working, I only have a short an hour lunch with them. It feels too short and rushing. But apa-apa will try my best to arrange time to meet as much as I can. To those I didn't, sorry k..will try to catch you guys anytime soon!

5. Meeting a new insurance agent
Ah finally! This one tomorrow I will do. Been delaying her about a year I guess. *grin*

6. Meeting potential business partner
First meeting done. Second meeting soon. Consultation fee will be charged for any inquiries. ^^

7. Cook for my Kaka 3 meals a day
Breakfast so far i think 2 times, Lunch 5 times, dinner almost every night. Not so bad la kan.

8. Wanna learn baking!
Bake your head la Jesse! Wake up what time already everyday?! Bake bake bake..!Bake your cute butt till the sunrise la then! hahaha ya ba..semangat ada, tapi asal nampak katil macam siok lagi tido..keke

9. Blogging
Lalalalalallalallaalalllallalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

10. Go shopping for Echo's bachelorette blink blink party!
Okey this one sure will do! Maybe Friday la..Tomorrow & Thursday got appointments already.


Bah nda sanggup suda I list down all the unfinished tasks...share with you some pictures taken during my lazy jobless days...

My last day with Enopi. Finally I left the company after 3 years of happy and sad memories.
Whatever it is, I've been learning a lot from there and it has made me a stronger person. Thank you laaa Boss!

2nd day attempt- Go shopping alone!

8am jogging look! Betul-betul kana paksa ba kan..mata pun bengkak2 lagi..keke

Middle week- If boring, cam-whore lor..^^

Day trip to Melaka. Foot massage while waiting for May. keke

An awesome deal with Nadeje @ Dataran Pahlawan Melaka! Yummy I want!

Yeah last but not least, I will forever remember 25.04.12 as today I finally shared it with You. 

Thank you for always being there for me. It makes me getting closer to you. You know who You are. :)

Friday, I'm in Love!

Oh I love my Friday! 
Especially the sweet morning talk!
And your morning kisses!

Love the incredible double breakfast!;p 

That's makes me so energetic and cheerful today! 

TGIF All! 

Thursday yang paling not tenteram

Ishhhh napa ba ni.....??

Napa ba nda tenteram betul sy ni hari. Napa ba napa...
Hati nda sinang...blik2 mo marah ja...
Ini nda ngam itu nda ngam..apa yg ngam jesse?kestau!
Sy nda mau ba, sy nda mau gini...
Macamana gia ni mo kasi bgus ni ketidaktenteraman?

Duduk rumah boring pi keja malas mau pi shopping teda kwn..
Pa lg skg ni satu badan sakit, tulang sakit, muscle sakit, parut sakit, nenen sakit, suma la mo sakit!
Lama-lama sakit jiwa la sy ni..
Sy nda mau jadi mulao ba...syg sbb sy santik..hahaha
Wahhh..ni kali la betul2 nda buli tahan ooo..
Apa ko bg sy ni Tuhan...

Nasib jua bsuk cuti...
Cuti pun nda dpt buat apa2 la gini punya mood...
Satu hari ampai2 di rumah?

Lama-lama jadi gila!

Ba gini la ni..another many hours to wait until tomorrow..:(

What's new in 2012?

If last night I am long hair, today I have a short one. Well, don't ask me where I have the gut to sacrifice my beautiful long hair, I have no answer for that too.haha Actually I've been thinking of cutting it short long time ago, just too bad I have no gut to do so! Nda percaya ei (I couldn't believe) with my spontaneous "over-night" decision! which just happened while browsing short hair artists with my kaka last night. Good also la, at least starting from now I can stop annoying  everyone "Nice oo kan her short hair, should I try?" since I am one of them..:)

Nah presenting the new 2012 Jesse a.k.a Kollo!

Taraaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

The Chinese-Malay Affair

Okey la since I am quite free today, let share the story about how I was asked to wear 'tudung' for my Muslim Card. No offend ya. This is just a sharing, so that I hope it won't happen to others, especially the new comer like me.

So there was this day I went to one of the Islamic office to register as new comer. After registration, I was asked to meet an officer to choose a new name. That was the moment where we (my husband and I) had an argument with the officer about the name we had chosen long ago. (See my previous post) I was a little upset with the way the officer trying to convince us that "Jessenia" is not a Muslim name. Sorry to name is as rude.  He did Google the name on the spot but sad to say he's insisting that the name cannot be used as it is a Spanish name. Well one name can be used by different country right? It is also stated "Jessenia" is an Arabic name and mainly used by the Muslim. Sigh~ For me, whatever it is, it's just a name. What most important is my heart to the religion, not the name.

Back to the topic I wanna share about the wearing "tudung" (headscarf) story...

Okey done with the name changing. I was asked to go another section to take photo for my Muslim card. At the counter, I greeted the lady with "Assalamualaikum...", without answering me she passed me a "tudung" and asked me to wear. Honestly, I didn't know how to wear the tudung. Without asking more, I took the tudung and tried to wear it. Since it is just a plain scarf (not the one main sarung saja), I just simply put it on, slung the tips crossing each other on my shoulders. No mirror is provided so I didn't know how do I look like or whether am wearing it correctly. So when I thought I am ready to take photo, the lady again said "Eh..pakai la tudung tu baik-baik sikit. Rambut you tu, jangan bagi keluar. Pakai tudung pun tak reti macam mana nak jadi saudara baru." Again I keep quiet. I was so frustrated at that time, I really wish she will lend me a hand to put on the tudung nicely. Instead of helping me, she just stood at one side looking at me, with her restless look. Until today I am so sad when thinking about it again. Though I was hurt with the way I was treated but that's doesn't mean I hate the Malays or Muslims. These people are just the minority cause I have met many nice Malay friends and they are so helpful too. :) Again, it's just a sharing, hope no one get offended k..^^

Well, to share another story...

I have few friends were in relationship with Malay guys. Just take one as example. Been together for 5-6 years, but end of the day my friend need to choose between family and love. Since she is born in a strong belief in Christianity, she got no choice but to let go her love. Trust me. They were in pain now. This is very sad. They were letting go not because there's no more love, but not to hurt. It was unfair isn't it? Will this and the cultural differences make it less likely for many out there to survive as a couple?Who should get the blame? NOBODY. Cause love is never wrong, just us the human.

The fundamentals of love are romance, companionship, understanding and support. You have to believe these cross cultural boundaries, if you really believe in true love. Have a pleasant day all. Merry Merry Christmas!

Ada orang kata orang cina dan melayu tak boleh kahwin..

Weird huh? Why when the chinese or the Indian go with Amor or Nigro nobody will make huu haa ah?!I hope I didn't sound so racist, if yes I would be the last person to be said as a racist, as I myself married to a Malay and happy with my choice..♥

Whenever a chinese girl go with a malay guy, the entire world seems looking at two aliens holding hands.(Not that bad actually, at least you feels like a not-so-famous artist at whatever streets you passes-by.haha) I remembered when I was in high school, one aunt told me "you can go with any guy, whatever guys, but definitely not the Bajau." Well what she meant is don't go with the Muslim, right aunty?:) What's wrong with that anyway? Isn't that so racist? I don’t call certain someone racist but without proper understanding on certain topics, people will tend to have a wrong perception of certain something.

Yes again..what makes the chinese or other races get so paranoid? The problem is not really with the Malays but rather with Islam. As what we aware of, the Malaysia Marriage laws are kinda strict, and the non muslims would have to submit to the Muslim according to Islamic marriage laws. If we were to compare, the intermarry is easily done in other countries, but not Malaysia.

As a half-blooded Chinese, I understand what makes the Chinese feels so scared of letting their children to marry a Muslim. First, they thought their children is not allowed to eat same table with them anymore since the food is not halal. Yes, indeed there will be changes in the lifestyle, but not dramatically as they think. Relax..It's not as bad as you think people. Islam is a beautiful religion. Convert to Islam doesn't mean you become Malays.  Islam is not equal to Malays. No such thing as you must wear baju kurung or totally lost your identity as Chinese or your original race after convert. You'll always be the same, just the belief is now different and need to be a extra careful with the food we choose. Yes to cover "Aurat" is compulsory but there is no force in Islam. The religion itself can't force one if you are not ready for it. The day will come when your "Hidayah" is there. Take it easy, learn it slowly. Islam is a universal religion, no matter who you are, the Arabs, Malays, Indonesians, Chinese, Indian (anyone, anybody) can believe in the same faith, which is Allah SWT. I know sometimes there'll be misleading in religion, just like how I was forced to change my name to "so called" Muslim name as the staff said "JESSENIA" is not a Muslim name, just because he never heard the name before. It was sad a new come like me being forced for something that I am clearly know I am at the right side. The staff even says " If you suka sangat nama ni, you letak la. Kita tak tanggung if ada apa-apa problem in future." :( 

Share with you next time how I was treated when I was asked to wear tudung before taking photo for my Muslim card. Don't get me wrong ya. I don't hate the Malays. Never! I am married to one lei..! And I am proud to have one..♥

Ok back to the story....

I believe many out there might be facing the same problem. With my 10 years relationship with a Muslim guy, I am definitely say "GO FOR YOUR LOVE, PEOPLE!!" but remember never hurt.  Yes it is ok for us, but for our parents its an entirely different story. No matter how big is the firewall, do not hurt their feelings. Seek for their blessings and approval. Try to talk nicely and prove to them that not all Malays are bad. (Sound like Chinese/Indian/Kadazan/other races are all very good huh..Don't like that la aunty..bad people whatever race also got mah...) I think it is up to us to change their stereotype because Malay or not, we are still human.  Nothing should stop one from falling in love, not to mention religion. 

End of the day, the power of love still lies in your hands. You need to rationalize the situation and think if its worth it. Make a decision that you won't regret. I know this is going to be a tough decision. Stay strong, stay with your love. That's your fate!

Check out the MV below! Love it as that's what I has been through since I choose him to be part of my life! Enjoy~

November Trip to Keningau!

Oh! I love my trip to Sabah this time! Oh shall I say every-time?LOL Where is Keningau? Well this is my second trip to Keningau if I am not wrong. The first trip was long long time ago until I couldn't recall what am I doing there. Basically I have no idea how the route would looks like. Sorry didn't manage to capture the scenery along the way to Keningau, but what I can exactly recalled was the fog! Before reaching Keningau, we need to passby Tambunan. It was covered with thick foggy all the way up to Tambunan and the whether was chilling cold. Since Eng is familiar with the roads, so she drove us this time. So grateful for the good chatting time while we were on the way to Keningau..:)  Btw, Keningau is the nerve centre of Sabah's vast interior division and land of the Muruts, one of Sabah's major ethnic groups. I was kinda surprise to see Keningau's town. It's bigger than what am expected! Large population too I assumed, with the traffic jam in a small town like this.

Though this trip is planned purposely for a friend's wedding, but it seems more enjoyable that I expected as I manage to meet my crazy girlfriend, Eng! It's always been a good time when we were together..miss u already oo Eng! XOXOXO

Us! Ready to fly!

The ladies! Ready for the party yo~

Eng Eng & Kollo, without May...

She's Conno. I am Kollo..^^

I hate the mustache!:@

4 people for 10 pax meals!

Us again!

Hahaha Damn boring...cam-whoring all night long!

The man with all the ladies..

Congrats to the newly wed!

Happy Wedding to Memei & Atun!
I wish you both just the very best in your future together!
God bless~

=_="

Sometimes there is nothing to say.

 Just take a deep breath and walk away.

Simply Wednesday...

Huhhh....

Finally gt time to post something after long busy weeks since moving to new house. I really miss writing but sometimes am seriously kind of ketandusan idea what to post. Not like I have nothing to write, I have a lot indeed! But I know myself well. When every time I try to write and that every time I need to try so hard to put the words into sentences, I know am actually not ready to share anything, so I normally will just stop where I stop. 

Ermmm...

Don't know why la..since moving to new house, I feel tired and lazy all the time. I don't actually feel like going out or even go to work! ( That's too much, Jesse!haha) The only thing I wanna do is to wake up early morning, prepare breakfast, get him ready to work, give him a goodbye kiss and go to buy groceries. haha Gosh!! I sound so aunty ody oooo..but I seriously couldn't hide this feeling lei..That's all I wanna do. Stay home do cleaning, cook for him and just wait till he is back to have meal together. Sound sien ooo~ Am I getting older? Nahhhh...Am just so sweet! ( plus HAWK!) kekekkekeke

OK la..share with you all my new hair-do la..don't comment plz!LOL

S.M.I.L.E

What a great day to start...:) Don't know why today I feel so happy & easy..the heart feel so light..for what reason I really don't know...I was trapped in the bad traffic this morning and definitely I cant escape for being late (again..haha), and I have no choice but to extend my working hours to compensate the late penalty. But still I have no complaint! This is kinda weird...but of course I love this feeling since I don't have much days with such feeling..so before any storm hit me today, I better write something wonderful and meaningful to share with all of you..:)

People says, if you want something you never had, do something you have never done. Don't go the way life takes you, take your life the way you go. And remember you are born to live and not living because you are born. Nobody can change the tides, but we can learn to swim. Tell you what, sometimes prayers doesn't change the situation, but it changes our attitude towards situation, and gives us hopes which changes our entire life. Happiness always look small if you hold it in your hands, but when you learn to share it, you will realize how big and precious it is. A lot of us speak so loud when we are not happy for something, but sometimes we forget we do make others unhappy too. So before you speak...LISTEN, before you write...THINK,  before you criticise...WAIT, before you pray...FORGIVE, before you quit...TRY. Life is 10% what you make it and 90% how you take it. This life is too short even to love, I don't know how people find time to hate...

Keep smiling people..

Have a wonderful day!

You get infection, I get flu!

Smiling is infectious,
You can catch it like the flu.
Someone smiled at me today,
And I started smiling too..
Be happy everyone,

Be happy my lovely one.

L.O.V.E

We are all a little weird,

And life is even weird,

When we find someone whose weirdness

is compatible with ours,

We join up to them

and fall in mutual weirdness,

and we call it L.O.V.E!

Aint that weird?

^=^

Here I am...

Wah!It's been long long long time I didnt write...Now also I dun really feels like writing though..huhu no inspiration to write..not because of happy or sad..just because I am kinda busy with works recently...works getting tougher..so do life...Somehow I am grateful that I have You, You & You with me..Thank you so much, People!I love ya'all!Muaxxxxx

p/s: Thanx for the food!Always~